happy new year

i'm trying not to be bitter because i'm here at the office celebrating new year's eve... hmmmmm.. can't believe were about to end 2006 about 2hrs from now... i loose some, gain some, i failed, i succeed, i cried, i laughed... that's life...
wats heading me kaya for 2007??? i thank God for dis another year he had given me... sana more blessings :)


below are our pictures while celebrating new year's eve... malungkot but then kelangan :) i just hope i'll spend the next year's eve at home :)

ending the year.... sleepy hehehe!

2nd day before 2006 ends... and i'm sooooooo sleeepy.... i had a 3day 3hrs training for skill upgrade... that makes me stay on the office for 12hrs! 8pm to 8am... and luckily we survived it (me, jhenn and ben)



i feel so deprived of sleep... i arrived at home about 10am... needs to eat breakfast, do half bath, play with my sister, read a book, watch tv... ending, i snooze about past 1pm... and then needs to be awake by 5pm!!!! haaaaaay! but then good thing is... i have a job... iam blessed... bawi na lang sa restdays, january 1 and 2... plan to sleep 24hrs hahahaha! jokeness... i want to write sana a year-end blog kaso so sleepy to think right now ngek ngek ngek! happy rizal day nga pla :)

holding-on

huwaah! i want to cry!!! dada said there's no way to fix my laptop than to format it... it keeps on rebooting kasi... first thing comes on my mind.... my pictures... our pictures together, corheinne's, rj's, my solo pictures, dada's solo pictures, my friends pictures... huwaahh!! pictures pictures pictures... we need to save it first but the problem is, it keeps on rebooting and it cannot even load the login screen...

but then, i'm blessed with a not-only-cute-but-a-very-smart-technical boyfriend... thank God... he has a solution for that... he bought me a usb hard disk enclosure for him to be able to bring the hard disk at home and copy all the pictures (haaay! wat a relief!)he really knows how to save my day hehehe!

and after the copying and burning on the cd... we got to format my laptop *sigh* its really hard to let go of some of the files which were not able to be copied... my mp3's but then the important ones are saved nman eh... that's good :)

i thank my honey for everyday, for the hard enclosure, for fixing my laptop, for helping me solve problems, for everything :) you still need me to install ALL the programs back on my laptop honey hehehe! thank you.... you're such an angel... mwaah!

merry christmas!!!!

another christmas day spent with my dada (its our 2nd christmas day spent together). we went to Star City today... at shempre people are everywhere, di kami mashado nakasakay ng mga rides :) we were with mama, corheinne, rj, ate lhen, kuya ryan, julia, kuya ryan's mother, sister, his sister's bf, our 2 kasambahay jay-ar and joseph (meaning were with the whole family hehehe! selos na cguro family ni jb kasi he's always with my family hehehe!)though its so crowded, i had fun kasi i got to spent this day with my dada and of course with my family... i had a share of tantrums that day (and i'll just keep it a secret) anyway, we went there about 5pm and leave aroung past 8pm... sobrang dami kasi ng tao and dada needs to go home na rin kasi its already late :) haaay! back to work tomorrow, but then i am happy because i had a time to spent christmas day with my family and my special one... merry christmas to all!

ang noche buena

kuya ryan's mom, sister and his sister's bf had their noche buena at home... we had our exchange gift... i picked the gift from ate lhen... mine was picked by len-len (bro-in-laws sister).. though we don't have that "bongacious" handa, its still indeed a happy noche buena shared by family... even papa's at work... and on new year's eve im at work also (huhu! so bitter about that)

i've been the photographer for this event thats why i'm invisible on the pictures hehe!


my pamangkin Julia and sister Corheinne, pumoporma na sa christmas tree waiting to open their gifts hehehe! its not with the handa, its how you celebrate :) its Joseph's (our kasambahay) birthday din pala 2day
my pamangkin who also wants to blow the candle jay-ar (our another kasambahay) with his girlfriend. si mader at si brader hihi! and now the wait is over... opening of the gifts :)

christmas eve

its christmas eve na... and its my rest day... *sigh* .... i honestly doesn't feel na holiday season ngyon... prang ordinary days lng... ngek ngek...

today, after my shift i went straight to sm san lazaro with my cutie pink messenger bag i received from my office mate Lara (monito-monita) i also received chocolates from Apple and Jhennpot and mirror from Kate... got lots of gifts today hehe!

good, that sm san lazaro opened as early as 10am today (it usually opens 10:30am). last minute shopping, wla pa akong gift para kay dada ko, kay mader, kay fader, kila bro at sis... kahit so sleepy na and everything hala lakad hehehe! dada and i met at sm san lazaro after honeyko's shift... he arrived mga past 2pm na yta... i got a pair of earrings and a necklace from him and a christmas card (he's so sweet) i really loved the message on the card.. as always :) christmas party at home later hehehe! merry christmas to all!

sadness mode

haaay! dis is wat u pay for being a call center agent with a graveyard shift!!!! i'll be at work at december 31!!!! waaahhhh!!!! dis is my second year to spend new year's eve at work.... pa-konswelo i'll be at home on december 24.... huwaaah! still not hapi with that... anyway at least kahit papano home ako ng xmas eve... the gud thing is... i dont have work on dec.24-25, jan.1-2... PERO!!!! fireworks, firecrackers will be everywhere on dec.31.... gudluck na lng sa biyahe ko papasok sa dec.31, with my 11pm shift... one hour na lng the whole philippines will be on countdown celebration at ako... naka-upo sa station ko huhu! so sad :(

i will always stay in love with you

When you need someone to be there for you, I’d be just sitting right beside you. Happy 19th monthsary honeyko... may we have endless monthsaries to come :)

our wacky moments

you are so easy to love. after all the time we've been together, you'd think i would have gotten over this crush on you. you're so much fun to be around that i'd rather spend time with you than do anything else. i feel so lucky to have found you... the one i love most in the world.

"a good relationship is one part tenderness and two parts of goofiness"

brother turns 18

we have a small party today because its my brother's 18th birthday...konti lng handa, wla kasing budget hehehe! videoke galore ang mga kapamilya :) i have work today kaya kumain lang tpos umiskapo agad hehehe! may you have more birthdays to come bro at sana be mature na po... happy birthday... mwaaah!

food trip

honeyko and i went to sm sta.mesa to take our late breakfast slash early
lunch... its our first time to eat at sm sta.mesa...here's my dada he looks busog na noh? hehhehe! kasi nman... after eating this KFC's chicken steak he had this Pinoy Toppings porkchop with large serving of rice... ayan di niya tuloy kinaya hehehe! pero in fairness the food is great... masarap sha.... no need to explain i almost eaten my plate hehehe!

Link2support christmas party

Today is L2S-Manila's christmas party, its my 2nd year to attend our company's christmas party. This year's theme is "awards night" that is why we are on our gowns slash coat and tie attire. At shempre... the most handsome guy is my one and only dada hehehehe! (love ur own eh *smiles, smile*)

The party was held at Le Pavilion, started at around 5pm and ended at 9pm... actually we just left around 9pm because some of our team mates have there shift (glad i have my 2 day VL hehehhe!)The party was not that enjoyable as last year (last year we had a movie theme) but then it was fun because i got to see my officemates/friends on their formal attire... we all look different hehehehe! What i enjoy most is the FOOD hehehe! shempre... corey to eh.... anyway, wish ko lang may bonus hehhehe!

happy birthday mother

happy birthday to the greatest mom in the world :)
thank you for all the sacrifices, love, patience... for everything.... you're simply the best! I love you Mama ;)

every girl's dream

i got this from my email's inbox... its so cutie and "mostly" true.... for me.... hehehe!

1. Get kissed in the rain.

2. Have that one hot kiss where she’s pressed against the wall.

3. Have a guy that thinks she’s the world

4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possiblewhen giving hugs.

5. A boy that whispers he loves her in her ear.

6. Have that moment where they just gaze into each other's eyes.

7. When she cries, he kisses her tears away..

8. When she’s not with her guy he's all that she can think about.

9. Wearing his jacket and every time she breathes in, his scent surrounds her.

10. A guy who will watch any movie with her, no matter how teary eyed she may get.

11. A guy who squeezes her hand.

12. A boy that says he loves her and means it.

13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window.

14. A guy who is loyal.

15. A guy who will sing to her no matter how bad he is at it.

16. A guy that will kiss her on the forehead.

17. A guy that will call her beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy

18. A guy that will never judge her for how she looks.

19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to her just to make her smile.

20. A boy that is the same when he is with her and when with friends.

21. A boy that tells you everything honestly.

22. A boy that is good with her family and introduces her to his family

23. A guy that will always let her win.

24. A guy who stands up for her no matter who it is against.

25. A guy who calls her at night just to say 'hi' and see how her day has been.

26. A boy who tells her that her smile makes his day and makes everything better.

27. A boy who will sit on the phone with her when she’s sad, even if she’s quiet.

28. A boy who she can hangout and have fun with.

29. A boy that will just randomly call her for no reason at all, just because he misses her..

30. A guy who will hold her hand through the roughest parts of life.

31. A guy who would love her forever no matter what the circumstance.

32. A guy who wouldn't mind her wanting to get all dressed up and do her make up for him.

Even if he says he likes her better without make up.

33. A guy who she can be herself with and he will never give a care and would still tell her that she is amazing to him.

34. A guy who runs his fingers through her hair, like he's washing her worries/troubles away.

35. A guy who tells her she makes his day better, just for being her.

it seems like almost all my dreams have already came true... i just feel glad and thankful... i can only thank my dada for making my dreams come true... thanks honey :)

sneak of my day

haaay! dada and i watched keanna reeves latest movie entitled "reyna" argh! wat a waste of time and money... but anyhow, i had a share of laughters din naman kahit papano... knowing me, i laugh easily hehehehe!

i'm out from the ofis at exactly 8:03am.... excited to see my dada waiting me outside the ofis *smiles* then he handed me a tuna sandwich which he claimed that he made for me (duh! hon, i know you... allergy ka sa mga lamang dagat ang everything kaya di mo maatim na makasalaupang palad ang isang tuna na galing sa de lata hehehe!) but i really appreciate it, una dahil so hungry nako... pangalawa, my dada shows he's just not sweet but verrrryyyy sweeetttt! hehhe! thank you for always taking care of me honey...

we then headed to sm san lazaro... at shempre were so earllllyyyy!!! 9:27am to be exact... and the mall opens 10am... so we went to puregold na lang since it is already open (9am), we went there to buy mommy sheng's requested tumbler hehehe! and then we went back to sm san lazaro... arrived around 10am.... we then went to watched reyna by keanna hahahaha! cornyness plus movie tripping equals crazyness hahaha! di namin naumpisahan pero tinapos na lang namin at di na nagbalak na umpisahan hehehe!

we had our lunch at greenwich with spaghetti and pizza... yummyness.... then we went home na kasi i have work pa later 11pm... (hmmm... ngyon na pala un... i'm at work and blogging hehehe!) that was my day :)

with great power comes great responsibility

today is honeyko's 1st day being SPSS1 (Senior Product Support Specialist 1) naks! so increase salary na yan hahaha! i'm so proud of you honey, alam mo nmang your achievements are my achievements too.... i always know you can make it :)

simoy ng kapaskuhan

gosh! december na pla... ang bilis nman ng panahon, nasa ika-12th month na pala tayo... shempre malamig ang simoy ng hangin, kumukutikutitap ang kapaligiran, mga christmas party, exchange gifts, santa claus hehehe! pasko na naman :)
shempre at home, we also have our christmas tree standing na... at dahil poor ang creativity ko, i never had a chance na tumulong sa pagdedecorate ng bahay namin hehe! the xmas tree below was designed by my bro-in-law, kuya ryan...

our christmas tree
our little belen
my dada and i also watched our first movie for this december kanina sa eastwood cinema, "The Return" by Sarah Michelle Gellar... at shempre suspense sha, haaay! i'm into horror/suspense movie na ba? i wanted to watch "inang yaya" sana kaso my honey will just sleep on that movie for sure, wla lng gus2 ko lng mag-drama mode hehehe! but anyway, at first boring ung movie, inaantok na nga si dada kaso ung medjo lapit na ending okay okay na.... pero di pa rin mashado maganda ung movie hehehe! basta i will watch "inang yaya" tlga by hook or by crook.... feeling ko its better kung si mama ang kasama ko watching that movie, pero dapat sa haus lng kasi baka pag lumabas kami ng movie haus maga na mga mata namin (were both cry babies kasi, iyak kung iyak hehehe!)

ice cats early xmas party

location: 5th floor technoplaza one, new pantry
date: november 26, 2006

isa lang masasabi ko... i had fun! :) grabeh nakakamiss ang icecats... kahit i really dont know each person ng team when i step into that room where all of us are ice cats members i feel at home... masaya ang naging xmas party, dami nga nagtanong bakit ang aga? wala lang, eh sa iyon ang trip eh... bakit sino bang nagsabing ang xmas party ay dapat december lng? hehehe! the foods are great, yummyness! hehehe! nabusog kami :) at ang dada ko got a certificate of appreciation for being a team's PP (Point Person) naks! i also received a very nice gift, actually i like the gift (shempre nasa wish list ko un hehehe!) i have 4 of the summit books na yeey! thanks to daniel who is my ka-monito-monita pla :) after that 3hrs xmas party jhenn and i went back to the office happy at busog (we still have a shift pa kasi) haaay! everything is so nakaka-touch, the people around, the pictures, the food??? (kakatouch sa tummy hehehe!) Our company Link2Support will be having its xmas party this december 13... kita kits tayo dun mga ice cats... kainan uli hehhee! :)

a day with my sister

haay! so tired today.... i rendered OT earlier and it so happened that its my sister's PE day sa school and they have a dance number which is i missed unfortunately because of that OT... haay! i wanted to watch her pa nman dancing with pumpum (pom-poms) hehehe! she doesn't have any pictures tuloy kasi i have the camera with me... buti na lang na-video ni ate... so i just watched it on the video na lang....

Don't push me 'cause I am close to the edge. I'm trying not to lose my head.

at kahit to the highest level na ang kaantukan ko, i granted her paglalambing (kasi may atraso ako) na to watch happy feet... huwaaah! i was awake kagabi pa 8pm then anong oras na???? cge, lakad! we watched Happy Feet at SM San Lazaro.... as always :) at shempre tinulugan ko sha... hahaha! blame it to my GY shift :) but then my sister narrated the story kaya medjo naintindihan ko nman... "di kasi marunong sumayaw si Mumble kaya sayaw na lang sha ng sayaw"- dat is what my sister told me when i asked "anong nangyari?" hehehe! but anyway kahit di ko mashado na-enjoy ang movie at sumakit ang likod ko sa pagtulog ng nakaupo, happy pa rin kasi my sister said "ate thank you ha" *sigh* im so touched... she's so sweet tlga... kaya i enjoy pampering her hehehe!

time to sleep!!!!!! and its my rest day!!! yeeey!!! zzzzzzhhhhhh!!!!

moments with my new hair

i got my sabog hair fixed na yeeeey... sa wakas... had the time and money to do that :) i stayed at index salon today for 5hrs for my hair rebond and hair gloss treatment... so kahit puyat ako for work today, di nman mashado look haggard dahil sa aking hair hahaha! having a long hair really makes girl "feel" beautiful at feeling mo girl na girl ka hehehe! kaya lugay galore ang drama ng ateh mo hihi!

piksyur moment wid my new hair

no call???

haaaayyy!!! thanksgiving sa US today pero bakit may call???!!! hehehe! pero infairness mababait sila ngyon... wlang irate client hihi! pero we're expecting zero calls today hehehe! garapal eh... pumasok pa ayaw naman palang magtrabaho.... anyway, they will all eat those big turkeys they have on the table na hahaha! wla lang...

haay!!! my to-do list for today....
10am- i should be at home
10:30am- finish eating breakfast/lunch/dinner (with my timezone, i don't know which i can call breakfast, lunch or dinner hehehe!)
11am- i should already be sleeping
4pm- alarm snoozzzzziiiiinnnngggg!!!! stop sleeping...
4:30pm- i should leave home na
6pm - i should be at gateway to meet my dada... we will be buying our gifts for the ice cats xmas party this sunday... i wish we can watch movie pa hehehe!
11pm- i should be at the ofis na :)

my very own nyoy volante?

Nyoy Volante and Joy Lupina, separated at birth??? hmmm.... 2day, my tally sheet increases a point. an office mate told me (while i'm browsing my friendster pics) that my boyfriend looks like nyoy volante!!!!

Gosh! she's already the 4th person who told that... the 1st person who "noticed" that is my very own sister... followed by my cousin... next is a friend and the last is mama rhea...

I honestly cannot see their resemblances.... duh!!! mas pogi at cute naman dada ko noh (sorry nina, hahahaa! love your own eh *smiles*) but then as i surf the internet i got to "know" a bit of nyoy volante... also base on his movie guestings.... he's very sweet and loving person, a type of guy na hindi nahihiyang ipahayag ang emosyon... he even say 2 dozen of "i love you's" to his girlfriend... parang ang Jb ko, yan siguro ang pagkakatulad nila... my dada is also ssssuuuuuppppeeerrr sweet and loving boyfriend.... you cannot ask for more

so, what do nina and corey have in common now??? of course... a very sweet and loving and caring boyfriend... sa katauhan ni nyoy at ni joy.... hehehe!

a blast from the past

since its my restday today, i had a chance to clean my room... yah, i do the sweeping and wiping hehehe! and then i saw this album of mine.... *sigh* how time flies... i wasn't able to noticed iam a big girl already (joke!) its nice to look back those old pictures of mine... the time when i cannot sleep without my mother on my side... the time when i cannot cross the street... the time when i don't know how to travel alone... the time when i cannot eat alone... the time when i don't know how to take a bath... the time when i don't know how to read and write... haaay! its seems like yesterday...

now, after 22 yrs of living, though my accomplishments are not that BIG.... i'm contented with my life...i have my family, my honey and my friends who love, supports and protects me unconditionally... my life's treasure... people who keep me going despite of the road blocks on my journey... God has been so good to me... i thank you for all of this, my Creator...

and still counting

Italian:
diciottesimo monthsary felice il mio dada. ti amo così tanto.

Spanish:
décimo octavo monthsary feliz mi dada. te amo tanto.

Dutch:
gelukkige 18de monthsary mijn dada. ik houd zo veel van u.

Russian:
счастливое й8тю monthsary мое dada. я люблю вас so much.

Portuguese:
18o monthsary feliz meu dada. eu te amo assim muito.

Greek:
ευτυχής 18$ος monthsary το dada μου. σας αγαπώ τόσο πολύ.

French:
18ème monthsary heureux mon dada. je t'aime tellement.

German:
glückliches 18. monthsary mein dada. ich liebe dich so sehr.

English:
happy 18th monthsary my dada. i love you so much.

Filipino:
Maligayang ika-18 buwanang anibersaryo aking dada. Mahal na mahal kita.


"No matter how many different ways there are to say it, there aren't enough ways for me to truly express how much I love you."

working girl

moving to the new account... Netgear.... adds 30 mins to my work time... before i only have 8.5hrs... now its 9hrs.... *sigh* 30 mins??? wla lang... ok lang naman kasi we have 3 aux2's which means 1.5hrs of break... not bad

before and after ng shift hehehe!

photo above was taken last nov.18 before i left home and nov.19 when i got home hehehe! graveyard thingy :) noticed the changes.... mahangin kasi sa labas hehehe! but then i enjoy my work... iam already immune to irate slash frustrated slash don't-know-what-im-doing kind of clients hahaha! you no longer pissed me people... with the power of my mute button??? "po_t_h, ang bobo na nga irate pa!" hehehe! dats how bad i am... how bad i can be.. hehehe! not that bad naman diba? :P

our cutie purse

jhenn and i both purchased this cute little purse from mama rhea... mine is the pink one :) its made up of beads... looks like bubble-made pero beads yan hehehe! so cute tlga... lahat yta kami sa team 11pm meron nun eh hehehe! cutie :)

si botchay at ang telepono

thats jhenn's bochay... cute cute at so pinkish... nasa tabi sha ngyon ng kanyang mudra na si jhennpot hehehe! nilagay lng sha jan sa tabi ng fone para magpa-picture hehehe! yan ang ka-hug ni jhenn habang may call.... bantay laban kay bugoy hihi!

ako at si jhennpot habang walang call :)

yan kami ni jhennpot... ang aking bestfwend sa link2support... halos lahat ng team na napuntahan namin lagi kaming magkasama... kahit ang paglipat sa netgear account from linksys hehehe! partners in crime :)

change?

i woke up around 7:30pm with the loud-angry-crying voice of my mother (my "day"started at night... because i'm an owl) she and my brother is arguing... i'm really worried about my mother since she might experience high blood pressure... i'm thinking, whats with Rj again????
i cannot say that my brother is the worst brother in the world... in fact, he's been a good brother to me... though we have shares of misunderstandings like ordinary siblings have... we never have a BIG fight... yes, we do hurting... as in physically hurting one another... that is when we are small... because we are both part of our school's taekwondo team and we feel that we both solve our problems (if we have any) by being sparring partners... we do get bruises and body pains by doing that but we then just smile to each other and then say "bati na tayo.. quits, quits lng"... that was when we are small...

as we grew up... fights become less... today, it becomes lesser... maybe because now i go to work... he often sees me... we often talk... we often argue...

my brother is not a "basagolero" type of guy... i can say he's an "uto-uto" type instead... people, or should i say his frends are the people who fool him most of the times.. from sa panghihiram ng money to the tol-ako-na-lang-gagawa-ng-project-mo... considering na its either ako or si kuya ryan lng nman ang gumagawa ng project niya.. i don't know what happened to my one and only brother... hindi na nmin sha kilala... even my mother and father ask me "anong nangyari sa kapatid mo?" he was once the family baby kasi only boy nga... but then after now, ganun pa rin... i cannot say that he is a spoiled brat... in a way siguro... ganun naman parents namin eh... as much as they can provide, they will give everything that you asks, even you don't need it basta kaya nila...

Rj started changing when he enters highschool... that's the first time she answered back on me shouting when we had a fight... we never learned to answer back impolitely or raised voice to anyone who is older on us... but not with rj's case... he also started getting irate if things he wants are not provided... he also wants to always leave the house... and then here comes the issue that, he is always compared to meee... that our parents expect more on him than what he can give.... which is not true at all...

parents though sometimes do comparison in their children but it doesn't mean that they love the "better" ones than the "less"one... sabi ko nga sa mama ko kaya di me naniniwala dun is because pare-pareho lng namang masakit ang paglabas naming lahat mula sayo... siguro ung iba mahirap lang ilabas compare sa isa pero mother's still have this extensive pain in labor...
also i think we are raised fairly by our parents... cguro kung meron mang dapat magdamdam eh ako un... its because when we are younger everytime rj cries all the blames was set on me... but then i didnt keep any grudge on that... its because of the reason... ako kasi ang ate

i really don't know what happened to my brother... the brother who use to tell me the stories of the cartoons he was able to watch... the brother who shares his food to me... the brother who's willing to give his toy car to me... the brother who wants to sleep on my bed, to share pillows and blanket... the brother who's been my playmate (more than my sister because i enjoy boy toys)... the brother who ask me how to write love letters... the brother who's so caring and protective... i miss my brother... that's why i wonder??? why sudden changed...changed into another person... a stranger...

they say change is the only permanent in this world... i agree on that... but this is the change that i wished never happened... i'm sad

i just can't thank God enough

"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love."

Despite of the dark clouds, heavy rains, shaking grounds, wars, chaos.... good thing... there's one person who can make you smile, laugh and continue to love you more... I'm so thankful...

...thank you for the sundays, mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, fridays, and saturdays that you share with me...
...thank you for the comforting jacket when i'm cold and i forgot to bring my own...
...thank you for asking me if i already taken my breakfast, lunch, dinner...
...thank you for reminding me on my over quota email...
...thank you for waiting me even it took you more than 5hrs waiting for my logout...
...thank you for serving the coke mcfloat to me...
...thank you for wiping away the dirt/stray hair on my face...
...thank you for bringing my heavy baggage home...
...thank you for holding my hand when we crosses the road...
...thank you for the stuff you've given me...
...thank you for picking me at home...
...thank you for the yummy breakfast, lunch and dinner together...
...thank you for the movies we watched...
...thank you for the flowers which makes me feel so girly...
...thank you for the hugs that keep me warm...
...thank you for the kisses the fades my worries away...
...thank you for making me feel im your everything...
...thank you for always being there...
...thank you for texting me your arrived safe at home or at the office...
...thank you for the chance of loving you...
...thank you for having you...
... i have endless list of thank you's honey...
but i always thank God I have you...

a bit of my day

i have a very abnormal time... i sleep in the morning and very much awake at night....

2am: i woke up from my 5hr sleep, its my restday today... i am planning to render dis much hated WoRD (work on rest day) but then i failed to because of various reasons...

upto 6am: online, had YM chat wid my dada... he went home... i get sleepy... nap.... but my supposed-to-be-nap turns to a 6hrs marathon sleep...

12nn: i woke up to realize im alone again in the house... yah, im used of it... laging naiiwang isa sa bahay... ate wid my niece went to her in laws, my lil sister still in school practicing for a program dis nov.27-28, my bro.. still in scholl.... aaagghhhh... wat a life!!!! though im use in being left alone at home, i feel so depressed dis time.... i feel im not part of there lives... i often feel i doesn't exists... my drama mode is on again

- due to my "depression" i fixed my closet...fyi: i only have time to fix it twice or thrice a year hahaha!

- i ate 1 hershey bar plus 1 M&M... yah, my chocolate addiction is back again... its my 4th consecutive day eating chocolate... but it still doesn't make me happy

4pm: my honey texted me "Gcing n b dada k? Cra prin phone. huhu. 2mrw hon ha. hatid kta bgo ka pumasok. Punta ako sa inyo mga 2 or 3 kaya dapat 2log agad paguwi." ... haaay! how i miss my dada so much.... its been our 3rd day without hearing each other's voice... damn, this pldt... grrrr.... buong barangay walang telepono... golly....

- di pa ako tapos mag-ayos ng damitan ko... duh! di naman ganun kadami damit ko, inabot nako ng 200 years d2...

- i really can't make it to work today... wla pakong tulog, wla pa si mama... she knows its my rest day today... wla sa planong aalis ako ng bahay...

- i get really sad kasi di pa pala ako nagsasalita ngyong araw na to... as in kahit single word, wla pang lumalabas sa bibig ko... siguro meron... baka "haaay"... panis na laway ko

6pm: my cellphone is ringing... walang number sa screen... sino kaya toh??? wow! its my dada... grabe... after how many days i heard his voice.... how i miss my honey's voice.... atlast, nakapagsalita din ako... i almost cried after i talked to him, i feel so special kasi... narinig ko kasi boses ng kakampi ko... biglang sumigla si corey... hahaha! tinapos ko na pagliligpit sa mga damit ko... after 6+ hrs????

8pm: my lil sister finally arrived... super bida na top 1 sha.... uuuy! totoo ba yan baka press released lang para maganda xmas gift... may spelling contest sha sa friday, kahapon pa lang practice na kami, tired na yta kaya pass muna today... wla pa rin si mama, lil sis d2 daw tulog sa tabi ko...di na tlga ako makakapag-word niyan hehe! kulitan moments wid my sister... i miss her..

i miss my little boom tarat :)

9pm onwards: e2 online, check ng friendster, blog, check email...

though we may not see each other often...

... i pray you'll always be guided.

Heavenly Father, up above
Please protect the man I love
Keep him always safe and sound
No matter where or when he's bound
Help him to know,
Help him to see
That I love him and make him love me
And dear Lord, help me to be the kind of girl he wants to be
Keep us now, Keep us forever
Happy loving, always together.


i miss my dada so much :(

wish list???

lapit na pala christmas... meaning work pa rin??? AYOKO!!!! but do i have choice??? if i will be asked of my wish list, this would be it...

1. sana wlang work sa christmas eve at christmas day... pasama na rin ng new year's eve at new year's day... kahit new year's eve na lang pede na... i want to spend pagbabagong taon with my family...
2. sana magtagal pa kami ng honeyko...hmmmm... mga kasintagal ng.... forever....
3. sana wlang magkasakit anyone sa family ko... ang better half ko.... ang mga friends ko... lahat sana wag magkasakit...
4. umunlad na sana ang pinas para lahat masaya... mawala na magnanakaw
5. bumait sana lahat ng tao... kung may mga salbahe man, sarilinin na lng nila ang bitch side nila hehehe!
6. sana gumanda nman sked ko... kahit anong sked basta pareho lang sa dada ko... or kahit anong shift basta sat-sun rest day...
7. more patience, understanding, caring at loving sana lahat ng tao...
8. sana maaga ibigay 13th month pay hehehe!
9. sana may christmas bonus... wish wish wish...
10. sana mabigyan ko lahat ng pamasko lahat ng tao... pilantropo????
11. new backpack, shoulder bag... any forms of bag???
12. wardrobe make over??? gising corey hehehe!
13. room make over.... heller?! dapat nasa to-do-list yta toh or else genie in a bottle kelangan ko
14. more time with my family, friends and honeyko... pede bang extend ang 24hrs... kulang kasi eh...
15. any of those summit books below.... balak ko kasing kompletuhin... hihi!

because i'm his daughter

today is my Papa's birthday... nasa biyahe siya... cagayan de oro, cebu, manila... ang papa ko? he's not that "showy" kind of person... not that malambing but you can feel na malambing sha (how's dat?)

my papa and i enjoys sharing thoughts and ideas on certain issues... our favorite topic??? politics.... i don't know why??? we don't have politician bloods though.... the topic that we "almost" always have the same view... religion.... its just that my father is a religious person and i'm not... i'm not religious but i'm very spiritual person...

when i told my father that i finally have a boyfriend... we enter the emo world... aka drama country (fyi: i had some boyfriend/s wid s but my papa never knew that hehehe! i have reason *take note singular* why i opt to hide it from him) the first reaction "dalaga na nga ang baby ko"... i got teary eye upon hearing those words from my father... because i felt that he might thinking that he'll be losing me... pano ba naman tamang dugtungan niya pa ng "siya na ba?", "kelan plano".... duh?! i just said "Pa, i just said boyfriend... baka bukas ko pa sabihing, Pa mag-aasawa nako hahaha!" si Papa naman open naman sha sa mga relationships even before pa kahit nag-aaral pako... its just that I haven't found the right guy, ngyon lang :)

memories of my childhood suddenly flashes back.... my Papa cooked a fried chicken sobrang sunog but then i ate it (ako lang kumain take note) kasi i don't want him to be disappointed sa luto niya hehe! isang beses lng ako napalo ni papa (shempre good girl yata toh hehe) that was when sumakay ako sa iron board tpos bigla shang bumagsak... tsk tsk... nalaglag na nga, napalo pa... but then, that's what good to my father, he always have time to explain... bakit ka pinalo, bakit masama yun, bakit hindi pwede... at endless bakit's

my father and i loves to exchange letters, siguro dahil hindi ganun ka-vocal sa emotions niya ang papa ko kaya dinadaan na lng namin sa sulat... but then we get closer dahil sa pagsusulatan namin... minsan nga during that time nasabi ko sa letter ko "kahit wla ng magpadala sakin ng love letter lagi naman akong my fatherly letter oks na"

madalas naming pag-awayan ng papa ko???? vitamins, clothes, room+restroom, household chores, posture...yan lang... vitamins kasi i always forgot to drink my vitamins, line ng papa ko "kaya ang dali dali mong dapuan ng sakit, wla kang proteksyon".... clothes, not the choice of clothes ha... ang kaayusan sa damitan ko... lines ni papa "haay! joy, para ka paring bata, di pa rin marunong mag-ayos ng damitan... ang magkaka-kulay magkakasama, at ang hanger mo dapat yung kulay lng ng hanger mo" (color coded kasi hanger sa bahay, pag red kay papa, green kay rj, black kay ate, orange kay mama, violet sakin)... ang unorganize kong room+restroom, ako kasi ung taong pagkagising diretso cr di natutupi ang kumot hahaha! laziness... papa's line "ano ba naman yan, tupiin mo nman kumot mo at ayusin ang kama parang dinaanan ng bagyo"... sagot ko naman "late nako, tska 22lugan ko din yan mamaya, malulukot din" hehehe! dats how i make palusot sa aking katamaran... next, household chores... i really hate doing the washing slash cleaning, kay ate na yun.. kulang pa nga sa kanya yun eh... kwarto ko nga di ko maayos... litanya ni papa "pano na lang pag nag-asawa ka?"... hmmm, saka ko na lang poproblemahin yan hehehe! at ang huli... posture, si kampanerang kuba kasi ako eh... pang-asar ni papa "anak, ano bang hinahanap mo sa daan at lagi ka na lng nakayuko kapag naglalakad?"... shempre may palusot ako jan "huh?! kuba ba ako? tinitignan ko lang baka may tae akong maapakan".... shempre di uubra sa papa ko yan "sa malayo pa lang dapat nakita mo na yun".... haaay! thats how my father reacts... di pedeng lusutan... all the time....i didn't grow up being the achiever daughter in the family... never ko ngang napaakyat sa stage ang papa ko para sabitan ako ng medal for academic excellence...ang kaisa-isang medal lang na naisabit sakin ng papa ko eh yung gold medal ko from taekwondo... wen i graduated college i apologize to my father for unable to give him excellent grades... pero ang sabi niya "makita lang kitang umakyat sa stage at tumanggap ng diploma pakiramdam ko cum laude kana" i got teary eyed during that time kasi kahit kelan naman Papa never asked us to be excellent in what we are doing... he just want us to finish what we started and be happy... now that i'm working, financial contributing to our family, my father told me "masaya akong nakikitang napalaki kita ng mabuti, ngyon ko lang naramdaman ang sinasabi mong I'm the best father kasi you made me feel that indeed I'm the best at thank you anak"

i always say to my father na i'm one of the luckiest girl in the world for having a father like him... kasi para sakin he's the best father (yah, i know every daughter will say that hehe!) but FOR ME, he's really the best Papa....

My Papa.... is someone who wants to catch me before i fall.... but instead picks me up, brushes me off, and lets me try again.
My Papa.... is someone who wants to keep me from making mistakes but instead lets me find my own way, even though his heart breaks in silence when i get hurt.
My Papa.... is someone who holds me when i cry, scolds me when i break the rules, shines with pride when i succeed, and has faith in me even when i fail...

Thank you for the laughter, For the good times that we share, Thanks for always listening, For trying to be fair. Thank you for your comfort, When things are going bad, Thank you for the shoulder, To cry on when I'm sad. All my life through, I'll be thanking Heaven For a Special Father like you.

Few teachings of my father which I live by:
"Gawin mo lang ang mga bagay na kaya mong panindigan."
"Ikaw ang may hawak sa buhay mo, ano mang mangyari dito, ano man ang mga maging desisyon mo, wla kang dapat sisihin."
"Never regret, you learn from your failures."
"When things seem worst that you must not quit."
"Wag kang mainggit sa iba, binibigay sayo ng Diyos ang mga kailangan mo, ikaw ng bahala sa mga gusto mo, wag mo ng iasa sa Diyos, ikaw ng gumawa."

Happy 52th birthday to the most handsome father!!!! I will always love you....




its also... Mamatots aka Rihnna Fe's birthday.... happy beerday mare!!!

november high

if there's a month that i quite-dont-like its November... its because of the Halloween stuff and everything... the ghost season... the nakakatakot na palabas and all... i'm half phasmophobic kasi... or should i say full-blooded paranoid, i can't sleep without lights on, kahit maliit na sinag lang dapat meron kasi i imagine things sobra... like the hanging clothes, i see them us you know... scary object, a ghost that might get me... the moving curtain, the stuff like that... my imagination is so exagerated...i really don't watch horror movies kasi di ko minsan mahiwalay ang fiction sa totoo... recently lang ako natutong manood ng horror movies dahil sa dada ko... he challenges me... "uuuy! magugulat yan" shempre i want to look brave hehehe! kaya go! but then medjo nawala din ang pagka praning ko... good thing... thanks to my honey :)

but then... Happy Halloween still!!!!