change?

i woke up around 7:30pm with the loud-angry-crying voice of my mother (my "day"started at night... because i'm an owl) she and my brother is arguing... i'm really worried about my mother since she might experience high blood pressure... i'm thinking, whats with Rj again????
i cannot say that my brother is the worst brother in the world... in fact, he's been a good brother to me... though we have shares of misunderstandings like ordinary siblings have... we never have a BIG fight... yes, we do hurting... as in physically hurting one another... that is when we are small... because we are both part of our school's taekwondo team and we feel that we both solve our problems (if we have any) by being sparring partners... we do get bruises and body pains by doing that but we then just smile to each other and then say "bati na tayo.. quits, quits lng"... that was when we are small...

as we grew up... fights become less... today, it becomes lesser... maybe because now i go to work... he often sees me... we often talk... we often argue...

my brother is not a "basagolero" type of guy... i can say he's an "uto-uto" type instead... people, or should i say his frends are the people who fool him most of the times.. from sa panghihiram ng money to the tol-ako-na-lang-gagawa-ng-project-mo... considering na its either ako or si kuya ryan lng nman ang gumagawa ng project niya.. i don't know what happened to my one and only brother... hindi na nmin sha kilala... even my mother and father ask me "anong nangyari sa kapatid mo?" he was once the family baby kasi only boy nga... but then after now, ganun pa rin... i cannot say that he is a spoiled brat... in a way siguro... ganun naman parents namin eh... as much as they can provide, they will give everything that you asks, even you don't need it basta kaya nila...

Rj started changing when he enters highschool... that's the first time she answered back on me shouting when we had a fight... we never learned to answer back impolitely or raised voice to anyone who is older on us... but not with rj's case... he also started getting irate if things he wants are not provided... he also wants to always leave the house... and then here comes the issue that, he is always compared to meee... that our parents expect more on him than what he can give.... which is not true at all...

parents though sometimes do comparison in their children but it doesn't mean that they love the "better" ones than the "less"one... sabi ko nga sa mama ko kaya di me naniniwala dun is because pare-pareho lng namang masakit ang paglabas naming lahat mula sayo... siguro ung iba mahirap lang ilabas compare sa isa pero mother's still have this extensive pain in labor...
also i think we are raised fairly by our parents... cguro kung meron mang dapat magdamdam eh ako un... its because when we are younger everytime rj cries all the blames was set on me... but then i didnt keep any grudge on that... its because of the reason... ako kasi ang ate

i really don't know what happened to my brother... the brother who use to tell me the stories of the cartoons he was able to watch... the brother who shares his food to me... the brother who's willing to give his toy car to me... the brother who wants to sleep on my bed, to share pillows and blanket... the brother who's been my playmate (more than my sister because i enjoy boy toys)... the brother who ask me how to write love letters... the brother who's so caring and protective... i miss my brother... that's why i wonder??? why sudden changed...changed into another person... a stranger...

they say change is the only permanent in this world... i agree on that... but this is the change that i wished never happened... i'm sad